One Broke Mama

   Hello, I’m at 39 weeks. Holy shit. I have a week to go. o.0  

   However, I get the feeling I will either give birth before the weekend is up OR get suck overdue and having to be induced. My OB said I should start feeling real contractions and I’m just not. Don’t get me wrong I want him to come when he’s ready - but damn it - I want to meet him already. 

    As far as symptoms go - I’m not feeling too bad. Carpal tunnel isn’t getting any worse, but the hip pain is. I’m hoping its a sign that my cervix is thinning more and more - but my next appointment isn’t until the 31st - where she wants to set up an induction date just in case. =(   Hoping it doesn’t come to that - I DO NOT want to be induced. 

  So I just got back from the doctor and turns out it’s starting to happen!! I’m 2cm dilated and 50% thinned out - now I know it doesn’t mean much cuz I can walk around like this for another two weeks, but this means that my body is getting ready for labor. 

I’m going to be a mom. I’m going to physically hold my son in my arms within the next week or so. That realization is scary and exciting all at the same time!! I’m so excited that it’s starting but so scared that now I know at any time I’m going to get real contractions and they aren’t going to stop until he comes out.

HOLY SHIT I”M GOING TO HAVE A BABY!  0.o  

First Holy Carpal Tunnel Batman! 

My knuckles have been pretty stiff the passed week or so - but this morning I woke up and could barely bend both sets of knuckles. Ouchie!!!! 

Time for the doctor!! Let’s hope we get some news that I’m at least progressing onto the path of labor. 

   Love google - apparently, eating raspberries during pregnancy is a no no - due to it could possibly trigger labor in the later months =D      

SOMEONE GET ME RASPBERRIES!!!!! NOW! 

   I have hit that wall, as they say when you’re pregnant. Most of the women in my group hit it way before me, mostly by the 32nd week, then the 34th, and then 35th. I managed to get to the very end of my 38th week. Boy did I finally hit that wall - I’m guessing at around 89 miles per hour. 

   There are A LOT of things that people don’t tell you about pregnancy. All I got was, “OMG It’s such a beautiful thing” and “It’s really not that bad, I’ve already forgotten all about it”, but let’s not forget, ” My pregnancy was a breeze”. ::MASSIVE EYE ROLL::  The only person who gave me some  insight was my best friend who was pregnant three years ago. But even she didn’t tell me all of it. I get it, once little one comes out - you forget things about your pregnancy. It’s not important anymore - you now have a child to take care of. But damn do I wish someone was completely straight with me on what to actually expect. 

  So this wall I was talking about - I’ve been very lucky in my pregnancy, but this has really dragged down my spirit. It’s getting very hard to walk some days. My hips are KILLING me, my pelvis feels like it’s spreading so thin he’ll fall out which is causing (TMI moment) lightning crotch every time he moves, my right foot is swollen so badly that my toes feel like they are going to pop. Sleeping has become a thing of the past, I’m lucky if I sleep an hour or two at most, before waking up to turn over or go to the bathroom. And those activities are slowly breaking my body. Turning over in bed, while 9 months pregnant should be an Olympic sport. It is the most painful thing ever. I even cried out a few times loud enough to wake my husband who thought I was in labor! And the worst - my body and mind are so ready to get up and do everything that needs to get done, until I attempt to stand up. I can feel the motivation begging me to get and do things, but my body has given up. 

   So I’ve hit the wall. I don’t want to be that woman who complains about being pregnant, because I did this. I wanted to have a baby, but holy crap. I just hope I can keep my cool until he comes out naturally. Just a few more days…

   Let’s see - I woke up to messages on my facebook from my mother-in-law, who was trying to get a hold me and left a few messages which in my crazy head, read like something was wrong. Turns out she was calling to check up on me cuz my loving husband is worried about me.  ::insert my heart warming up::  ADORABLE!! 

   I know I’ve been getting some weird pangs and some very mild contractions but it freaked him out so much that he called his mommy!! Who mind you was an L&D nurse for many years. I thought it was really cute. Got to talk to my MIL for a while and got caught up with things over in NY. Total mess over there but hopefully when she comes here - she can relax a little and enjoy her stay without worrying about back home. 

   Then I went to my appointment - which never happened!! WHY, you ask?? Well I’ll tell you. The entire building lost power. They left a cute little note on their door that said to call tomorrow to reschedule. I was really pissed for about 5 mins - I kept thinking - why on earth didn’t they call me to notify me?? I wasted all that gas and my time, not to mention it’s really hard to squeeze into shorts in this heat with my huge ass belly! ECK!! Then the preggo brain faded away and I realized they couldn’t call me, if they couldn’t get my information off the computer - even if they had my number in my chart they have no power to operate the phones. I felt silly after that. 

   Then while waiting for my mother in the parking lot of the local supermarket I sat and watched as a man left his GORGEOUS harlequin great dane in the back of his pick up truck in the 96 degree heat while he went shopping. GRRRRRR….  very annoying to me. I know it’s better than IN the truck but still it’s so hot out. Plus I got the side eye for sitting in my car while it was running. ::eye roll:: I know they can’t see that I’m 9 months pregnant and even 70 degrees is too hot for me, but lordy people - judge yourself first!!

   11 days to go… 

Dear acid reflux - I loathe you - that is all. 

Attempting to get some sleep - outlook - not so good. Grrrr… two more weeks, two more weeks… 

   So from 6pm yesterday to about 4am this morning I had very mild contractions and wicked bad heartburn. Nothing time-able so the hospital was out of the question. I already know what they are going to say - unless I’m in pain and can time them, stay home, drink water and put my feet up. Which is what I did. They finally went away. 

   Tomorrow is my appointment and for the first time - I’m getting nervous. Here’s to hoping all goes well. 

Ok I have a recipe that calls for coconut milk. Anyone know of a great brand??